Sounds like you've taken the same journey as me! Best of luck finding your way; it's a tough journey.

If you'd like to check out the system I built after giving up on others, head over to https://thetodaysystem.com.

Nothing to buy or sign up for (though there's a free 7-day email course that's optional).

It's simple to use, and seems to help a lot of us misfit toys who just haven't found that right system yet.